creative constipation

Over tea this morning, my friend described how his girlfriend self-sabotages her artistic ambitions. She’d intended to apply to a particular art school, but for reasons that were weak at best, she didn’t. Her lack of initiative made her feel shitty about her entire career, and thus herself.

I understand.

I have many ambitions. I have so many, in fact, that I fiddle around as to where to begin and end up doing nothing. Ideas clump up in my head like a gluey sparkle-mass, and I resolve to pull them apart another day. Instead, I listen to that old Radiohead album and gaze whimsically out my balcony door, watching the misty rain dampen my bamboo plant. I have a beer and sit on my couch with kitty rubbing against my leg. I’m relaxed. I’m truly happy.

I can do this sort of thing for hours.

But alas, there comes a point when I’m not happy anymore with just “being”. To the contrary, it’s my top-secret way of avoiding the fact that I’m creatively constipated.

Don’t push too hard. It will come. (Source: wordans.ca)

I know I’m capable of something that makes me and others happy, but it’s all backed up; a noxious, gaseous complacency shifting my creativity back and forth inside of me, but never out of me. It just gets increasingly compacted, filling me with misery and bloated potential.

And that’s why I have this handy-dandy blog. It cracks me open, and that’s a start. I start with nothing, sitting on the throne, and I write until I feel some movement. I tinker. I pause….ok, I push a bit. But pushing too hard isn’t good, as we all well know. And then there they are: thought-droppings!!!! And hey, they actually do have an iota of cohesion!! 😀

Forgive me for the pooh analogy, but I had to find a reason to use the rainbow pooh image.

We all want to create something memorable. We want to have children, or make art, or write books or poetry or plays. We all have an innate need to create meaning in our lives and in the lives of others. If we don’t express our creativity, I believe we become emotionally constipated.

But expressing creativity takes action…we can’t sit on a bench in the sun and look at the beautiful clouds rolling by and not do anything. We can be inspired by the scene, but it’s our ability as human beings to take that inspiration and create something from it. I guess that’s what makes us human beings. To interpret nature and re-create it in some mysterious other form that serves to inspire the human beings around us.

And to release it feels damn good, too. Aaaaaahhhhh…

I conclude with some quotes:

“You can’t use up creativity. The more you use it, the more you have it.” – Maya Angelou

“Clear out a corner of your mind and creativity will instantly fill it.” -Dee Hock

“The desire to create is one of the deepest yearnings of the human soul.” -Dieter Uchtdorf

“Creativity is intelligence having fun.” -Albert Einstein

“Creativity comes from trust. Trust your instincts and never hope more than you work.” -Rita Mac Brown

15 comments

  1. well I dunno Jami, I could accuse you of being constipated lately … if I thought you were just looking at the sun though I’d say go for it!

  2. Maybe you are the type that can only work in a team or a group Jami. Working alone can be almost impossible for some people. Just a thought ❤

    • I think you may be onto something, Ralph. Sometimes I think I spend too much time in my own head. I just blogged about being inspired by others…perhaps I need to listen to what I am saying and see how I can better immerse myself in communities or groups that inspire me, but also that I may inspire. Thank you for your thoughts on this. ❤

  3. I think even if we think we cannot create something in the physical sense, everyone has the possibility to be an artist of their own life. We can create a life we want to truly live that does not resemble a life that has been lived and copied a million times. Such a life could be inspiring to others who have only seen reprints of mainstream creations.

    I love King of the Hill. I used to watch it 3 times a day when I wasn’t working.

    • Yes we do create art just by creating our lines as we want. I was thinking that as I moved around my furniture yesterday. Something as simple as making my living space something that makes me feel truly peaceful feels like an act of artistry. I love King too! 😉

  4. Not everything we think will reach our fingers o tap onto a keyboard. I to have times I know the path I want to walk but i can’t seem to get moving. It is like a conflict of how to start or where.
    I have hundreds of little notes of sometimes a sentence long just to empty an idea.
    But that would just be me. never pushing just write what comes up. without really thinking. And later I see what to do with it. just doing something completely different may help. step of the path. I know I am today as my mind is keeping me from doing my Thursday story right.

    And face it.. sometimes the mod isn’t there. You feel you need to instead of having fun doing so. Maybe.
    Just a thought or two from a silly old crow.

    • Well silly old crows have wise things to say :)…a song comes to my head by the Beatles: “let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be, speaking words of wisdom, let it be.” 🙂 I love little notes btw…I buy old fashioned notecards and write on those. Something about writing something down by hand..feels more real, somehow.

      • True with pen it s real I always carry a notebook with me. But write and one moment you will see and feel it flow naturally. It is how we write and live. Ideas will come to live if they are meant to be. … just like my story today just happened to become..

  5. Pingback: what you create is a miracle of inspiration to someone, somewhere | evolution

  6. Brene Brown says that we all meant to be creative and if we don’t let our creativity out we are unhappy. I think there’s something in that…

  7. I have been creatively constipated in recent months. I intend to spend my entire Sunday writing and working on my blog, and end up logging in to Facebook 28 times, washing the dishes, reading 15 blog posts and watching two movies.

    So now I’m back. And writing what comes without overthinking it. As Ernest Hemingway said, The first draft of anything is shit.

    • Hahaha, that really sounds like me – master avoiders, we are! I haven’t written for months, but your comment may just spur me into action again! I will also pop over to see what you’re up to. 🙂

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