I was legally notified that I breached a copyright on a photo I used in one of my jobs. The photo was a cityscape of Bucharest that I used for a small event. It’s about the only time in my professional career I’ve done it. I should’ve known better. Stoopid.
This one guy I volunteer with (whom I perceived as a perfectly nice guy) recently told me he was in love with me and was looking for someone to have children with. When I politely but firmly told him I would never be in love with him, he sent me some nasty, rather deranged messages about him being christ consciousness and me being “an abused cheerleader”, confirming to me that he was not in his right mind. Long story short, he’s been banned from the garden we both volunteer at. Apparently I’m not the first female volunteer he’s set his sights on and created delusional fantasies about. It makes me sad, and despite it not being my fault at all, I feel bad about the entire situation. I never wanted to hurt him, and I still have an instinct to try to get him help and work it all out. But I’m not going to. I have to stop being that person that tries to help everyone. Sometimes it just gets me into trouble.
My immune system is not in full gear after suffering from the worst flu I’ve had in over a decade. I’m still snotty, sneezy and coughing up god knows what. In addition, I’ve quit smoking (since I’m now clearly addicted, there’s just no getting around it anymore). I hate admitting that I’m “a smoker”, but I’ve got to put it out there. I’m slowly killing myself. I’m the girl that runs 10k and then can’t wait to get back and roll a cigarette. It’s just absurd.
To make matters worse, something is suddenly amiss with with my digestive system. Anytime I eat anything, it’s as if I’ve unleashed a small dragon creature within my gut, who proceeds to loudly screech and lash about. It’s really, really embarrassing when I’m at work in a totally still office and my stomach is making almost alien noises. I did some research and found it could be SIBO (small intestinal bacterial overgrowth), which is a precursor to IBS. If you have issues but not full blown, I would consider looking into SIBO yourself.
Tomorrow I’m starting a 5-day water fast (and depending, I might go longer). Fasting is a great way to kick start the healing process naturally and without drugs. I’m generally against western drugs as cures (although within reason). I’m not going to the doctor and getting on some toxic medication that will only give me other issues or side affects. I may go to the doctor after my fast to see about getting this issue tested…if I still have issues. Now, before any of you judge me and think I’m on some crazy starvation diet, see the following links:
Or, just google “health benefits of water fasting” and see for yourself. I’m not here to sell you on it, but perhaps you’ll find that it could be something useful for you, too.
I’ll be doing a daily update of my fast, which is good because I want to start blogging daily for awhile. I want to (again) get this pretentious nervous writing out of my system…I felt it riding me hard in my last post.
A fast I did a few years back: