I can barely read the news these days. I just can’t bare to find out who has last been shot, stabbed, burned alive, beheaded, tortured or raped.
Reading the news makes me feel so stupid about being lonely the other night, as well as all the other moments I’ve been sad….how could it make me feel anything but just grateful to have those I love safe and alive?
It makes me feel so confused about why members of humanity are so far down their rabbit hole of misery that they feel the need to murder innocent people for revenge, for some ancient war over WHO is God and what he or she is named. It makes me lose all faith…
Over this summer, someone I knew and his entire family was just going on a nice holiday when their plane was shot down because someone one from some country decided the plane needed to come down because, well, someone had to pay!
He and his entire family are just GONE. Wiped out. We’re never to see their faces or hear their laughter. They missed out on the precious chance to live their lives.
Right this moment mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, grandmas, grandpas and playmates…innocent playmates are mourning the loss of 141 precious lives in Pakistan. And those two Australians just having a normal day…what did they ever do to anyone?
I will never understand why after all these generations, that we cannot just learn to grow up, live together and forgive one another. I cannot comprehend why we continue to let money, greed, power, fear and misunderstanding RULE OUR LIVES.
Still, I will not be afraid of humanity. I’m not going to fear some stranger because he or she is different from me in some superficial way . We are not different. We want basically the same thing: to love, to be loved and to see our families and friends flourish. Some of us are just so very confused about how to accomplish that.
I don’t know what else to say. I’m just so sad right now. For all of us.
To all those survivors of victims in Pakistan, Australia and all the other countries dealing with violence as I write this:
There are no words that could ever mean anything in the face of the reality you’ve been dealt. Still, I am so sorry for your loss.